Diary of a Vietnam Veteran


Celluloid versions of war in Vietnam can't compare with the real thing

This long day began like all the rest - hot and humid.

My day began, like all the rest, with a trip to the latrine. Just as I was getting ready to leave, a tremendous blast blew me out the door onto the dusty ground outside. Realizing I was not wounded, I rose quickly and ran toward the site of the explosion as the sirens screamed red alert - incoming rounds.

As I neared the smoking, black crater I felt warm liquid running across my shoulders and down my arms. Still feeling no pain of my own, it dawned on me that body parts were raining down from the sky, landing on my head and shoulders.

I stopped, overcome. To my right lay a torso heaving one last, reflex-driven sigh. To my left writhed a screaming man clutching the remains of his arm.

Feet pounded by as braver men than I ran to assist their fallen comrades. I could not move.

In time, two of my men led me to the shower for the first of several I took that day as I tried to wash from my body the remnants of corpses that still stain my memory.

The telegram went out that evening to six sets of devastated parents and spouses with the dreaded introduction; "We regret to inform you that your son, (name of deceased), was killed in combat operations in the Republic of Vietnam in the service of his country...."

But it was not an incoming enemy mortar round that caused the carnage I witnessed that day. A despondent GI, very high on pure heroin, chose to commit suicide and in the process, take some of his comrades with him.

He was cleaning his weapon by a table with five other soldiers returned from a night of duty on our defensive berm. The self-destructive 18-year-old removed a hand grenade from the case in the center of the table, pulled its pin, then put it back in the box, detonating the entire batch.

During the nightly drinking scene in our officers' club made of sandbags, we decided that the telegram sent home should have been modified. It should have read: "We regret to inform you that your son died needlessly in a conflict that should not have happened, at the hands of a person under the influence of a powerful drug taken to anesthetize the pain of separation from his family and confusion for his participation in this stupid war."

Even today, we can and should dishonor that war without dishonoring the warriors.


Wayne M. Burton is the President of
Northshore Community College in Massachusetts.

The excerpts here were taken from Wayne Burton's "Dong Tom Diary,"
about recollections of his tour of duty in Vietnam.


Children are always the losers when nations go to war!


The movie, "Saving Private Ryan" confirms one difference between World War II and Vietnam. The war we won inflicted great pain on innocent children as the battle ebbed and flowed across Western Europe. The war we lost produced two new classes of child victims: Amerasian babies and political refugees. On Sundays, when the Viet Cong went home to tend crops, an informal truce occurred between their side and ours. On those days, I oversaw the provision of food, medical supplies and later, clothing, to an orphanage in My Tho city on the Mekong River near our base in Dong Tam. The effort boosted our morale as much or more than of that of the two Vietnamese nuns who operated the facility populated by over 200 orphans and disabled persons ranging in age from a few months to some well into their 80s.

The many troops trucked to the orphanage on those Sunday afternoons returned to the war with pieces of their souls repaired. I soon learned that the nuns were not without their political skills. They had the older children make sure that at least one of their number latched on to a GI each afternoon to encourage our continued support. I fell in love with the eight-year-old who regularly attached herself to me over those 10 months. Tears came one day when she greeted me wearing a T-shirt with "Bowdoin, Class of 19??" printed on it. The shirt came in a "CARE" package sent by my parents' church in Belmont, Mass. who became involved in the clothing component of this mercy mission. I'd graduated from Bowdoin.

These orphans may have differed from those wandering Europe, however, in that many were the issue of unions of American soldiers with Vietnamese women. You can imagine, then, how outraged I became at the American colonel in Saigon who ordered me to leave the kids unsupported and unprotected when my unit, the 9th Infantry Division, was redeployed to Hawaii and Ft. Lewis as part of President Nixon's first troop removal. This event capped my transition from a defender of U.S. policy in Asia to ardent critic. The cultural bias toward mixed-race children combined with the hatred of anything touched by Americans, spelled doom for those children, including the young girl whose affection kept me at least partially sane those long 10 months of incessant combat conditions.

Thanh Tran, who arrived at Salem State College via Andover Academy, Everett High School, and a virtual child slave camp in Hong Kong, personifies the second kind of causality. Tran is a so-called boat child, exiled to Hong Kong and later to the U.S. because his father fought on the side of the United States during the war. As an officer in the South Vietnamese army, his father was taken prisoner following the removal of U.S. troops and later died in a "re-education" camp.

This story is particularly moving to me as his father served with the 9th ARVA division alongside my unit in the delta region of South Vietnam. Through Tran, I have learned a good deal about how new immigrants experience our citizenship process. Angered by the inexcusable delays in processing his application, I asked Senator Ted Kennedy for his help at an event in Salem last March. But even the ranking Democrat on the Subcommittee on Immigration of the Senate Judiciary Committee cannot expedite the interminable process to which applicants are subjected by the Immigration and Naturalization Service.

Thus the offspring of our deceased former allies must wait with all citizenship wannabes while our country decides whether or not to hang a "no vacancy" sign around the Statue of Liberty's neck. A mother's pain is a mother's pain whether we win or lose the war. As we celebrate Speilberg's triumph in his film about the invasion of Normandy a half-century ago, let's not lose its meaning. The damage war inflicts continues long after the bullets stop flying.

Wayne M. Burton is the President of
Northshore Community College in Massachusetts.



 
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